|Ohh tak, gambar takda kena mengena. Saja nak suruh korang teleng kepala sikit before baca. Lol.|
I don't know why.. But tonight, I just feel like writing. So, layankan je lah. Taknak pun takpa. Tak perlu baca. Tapi kalau baca, takperlu lah pulak lemparkan kata2 keji kat chatbox tu and appear as anonymous Eh? Melalut pulak. *facepalm*
Hmm.. How to start eh? Ok it's like this. Just to ask one question. Do you people have TRUE friends as in those who always there with you through it all? Macam naik turun kita, mereka2 ni ada je menyibuk. Hahah. Time susah ada, Senang pun ada. Atau lebih accuratenya bila macam contohlah kan, tahi hidung kita ni terover exposed dan mereka2 ni terus terang je cakap "Wehh, taik hidong kau tu! Chitt. Dah boleh korek dah! And please jentik jauh2, jgn calit kat aku pulak!" *eh over* Haa.. Mcm tu lah lebih kurang. Ada tak?
Well in my case, kalau pasal tu ada. Tapi tak banyak. Macam boleh dikira dgn sebelah tgn je. Atau 2-3 jari atau.. Ahh entah lah. Senang kata, kawan baik tu ramai lah jugak. Tapi org yang nak digelar SAHABAT tu, sadly.. Nan hado.
My life as a student really opens up my eyes like besar2 gila. O.O" It's so sad that everybody you thought you knew just turn up into really fake, selfish people. It's pathetic. Now I have to ask my self this question, what does it take to find a real, genuine friend? True friend is definitely hard to find now days tahu tak? It's like you really have to make sure you find one who won't lie to you or steal from you or talk about you to others. Which.. Ermmm Sangat2 susah nak cari yang mcm tu kan? Truly, I never had a friend who was there for me through thick and thin, or helps me out when I need it and looks out for me, and values the time we spend together. Well, actually I used to have em' but.. *sedih*
Bila susah semua menghilang, bila senang semua menumpang.
Every time I have tried to open up and develop deeper bonds with people, I have always ended up hurt in the end. They end up breaking my trust in one way or another, or they disappear when I really need help, or they are just extremely selfish and ignorant. Sedih tahu tak bila kita konon2 anggap sekian2 orang ni macam sahabat tapi tiba2 kita ni rupanya bertepuk sebelah tangan je pun. Masa suka dilupakan pula.
Tapi despite all these.. Kita mesti ada kawan2 baik time sekolah dulu yang walaupun masing2 dah ada haluan masing2 sekarang, tapi sekali sekala jumpa atau catch up, still rasa macam dulu jugak, perasaan tak berubah walau sikit.
Anywhoos.. I would trade a pile of acquaintances for a good reliable friend any day. I guess, I am not the only one who can't find real friends right?